following up on last year’s resolutions
// resolutions for the new year
last year:
wear a skirt.i did this several times actually
listen to more types of music.the weeknd counts. listened to other stuff too!
confess to a boy.does it count if he confessed to me first (I’M COUNTING IT I DUNCURR)
- learn to balance drawing time with studying time. uh, I got over 100’s in 3 classes this semester, but no, I didn’t manage to complete this. trying again. want 2012 to be the year I really get it.
- go for a 3.5 gpa. got it. (3.78 actually) gonna keep going.
- control my anger and anxiety better. “better”, but not a lot better, i don’t know if i will ever really complete this
- make art i am proud of and want to show everyone. I’d have to say I haven’t done this yet.
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general resolutions:
- obtain a source of income for spring semester 2012
I’m a lot more materialistic now than I was last year. I don’t think this is a bad thing. It’s a good motivator for doing things.
- buy at least 5 key wardrobe pieces
shoes. jeans. blazer. shirt with peter pan collar. dress (I still don’t own a single fucking dress)
- apply to teach english in korea
definitely definitely doing this. hoping I’m qualified enough.
- actually bother learning chinese
it’s about time I know how to write more than 1, 2, 3, and “small”
- become unattainable/untouchable
this is probably another one of those goals I can never truly complete. let’s go 2012, I’ll take you on.
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art resolutions:
- do studies do studies every day fucking do studies jesus fuck lazy ass fuck do studies god
everything I hate about my art is because of the fact that I don’t know enough about how to draw because I’m a lazy ass and I don’t do shit.
- draw backgrounds, think about backgrounds, scenery is important and you love it
I love it so why don’t I do any of it? 2012 holla
- draw more illustration type things
this doesn’t really need an explanation
- just draw MORE because you’ve barely been drawing
this is sad
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reading my old resolutions made me realize that my priorities have changed a lot. this time last year i was the confused industrial design/architecture major with serious emotional issues and idealistic thoughts. now i’m a materialistic business major with a desire for a 100k+/year salary; gonna work for it, gonna get it. but art is still important to me, honestly don’t know if i would ever be okay with myself if i just dropped it and forgot that i’m no good at it.
it frustrates me to no end, but i can’t do without it either. crazy addict shit.
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(I didn’t want this to end on a bad note, so…)
merry christmas! thanks for having an interest in what I do/my blog. have a good one.
